5:04 in the morning

It's 5:04 in the morning and i'm up. I've been up since about 4:20. It started with a call I missed on Skype. Heather woke me up and I returned it. Ever since I've been talking to so many people. It's nice because i'm up and the sun is now starting to rise. Well it started coming up around 4:45. It's weird looking at the sky here sometimes. On the way to the zoo when you looked out it was all covered in what seemed to be smoke. That wasn't just an illusion. That really is how bad the pollution is here. We take things for such granted at home. Life here is so bad. Coming to a new country, well a country thats not well off gives you a new perspective. I'm not saying I don't take things for granted, I know I do. I'm not saying once i'm at home I won't go back to taking things for granted I know I will. 

Have you ever just had a feeling that wouldn't seem to go away? You know you can't do anything about it, but you just can't get over it? That's where I'm stuck now. I can't do anything about it and I can't change the situation, it won't come out the way I want it to. Does it still hurt to hope it will? To hope that when it's all done and over you hopes wouldn't have failed you but instead come true. Maybe i'm hoping for to much I don't know, but I do know that i have one hope that i'm hoping will come true.